WOW, ITS QUIET HERE.... SOMEONE MAKE A POST WITH A QUESTION OR STORY OR ANYTHING..... I HAVE NOTHING RIGHT NOW TO SAY,LOL.... I'LL POST LATER... OK, I'LL CHAT A LITTLE NOW..
I'M JUST SITTING HOME DURING A BIG NOW STORM, ITS SUNDAY MORNING AND I JUST TOOK MY DAILY 130MG'S. I HAVE A TAKE HOME BOTTLE TODAY SO I DON'T HAVE TO DRIVE IN THIS SNOW.. THATS GOOD.... I PICK UP 4 TAKE HOMES ON WEDNESDAY MORNINGS. I DON'T GO BACK UNTIL MONDAY. ITS NICE.. I WORKED REALLY HARD TO GET THE TAKE HOMES. I AM CLEAN A YEAR ON THIS WEDNESDAY. NOT ONE SLIP UP OR ANYTHING. I DID IT COLD TURKEY (WELL NOT TOTALLY BECAUSE OF METHADONE).. I AM PROUD OF MYSELF, I THINK ITS OK TO BE PROUD OF WHAT I'M DOING. I WAS HOOKED ON ALL PAIN PILLS ,MOSTLY OXY, FOR 7-8 YEARS. I DECIDED I HAD ENOUGH AND WANTED MY LIFE BACK ON JANUARY 14TH 2008. I QUIT THAT DAY AND WENT TO THE CLINIC 2 DAYS LATER. IT WAS THE WORST FEW DAYS OF MY LIFE SO FAR. I LAID ON THE BED OR PACED AROUND THE HOUSE ALLDAY/NIGHT. I COULDN'T WAIT FOR MY FIRST METHADONE DOSE. I HAD TO WAIT TILL I COULD SEE THE DOCTOR AT THE CLINIC AND ALL THAT STUFF, SO IT WAS A FEW DAYS UNTIL I GOT DOSED FOR THE FIRST TIME...I DIDN'T REALLY FEEL ANYTHING THE FIRST FEW DAYS WITH SUCH A LOW DOSE (30MG'S).. I GOT INCREASED EVERY FEW DAYS AND STARTED TO FEEL BETTER, SLOWLY,
METHADONE MADE ME COMFORTABLE AND TOOK AWAY THE HELL. I FOR SURE WOULD HAVE USED AGAIN BECAUSE OF THE PAIN FROM WITHDRAWELS IF I DIDN'T GO TO THE CLINIC.
I AM A PATIENT ADVOCATE AT THE CLINIC I ATTEND. ALL THAT MEANS IS I AM THERE FOR OTHER PATIENTS TO TALK TO AND ASK QUESTIONS AND GET THEY'RE QUESTIONS ANSWERED BY THE STAFF.
I AM NOT PUTTING A TIME TABLE ON HOW LONG I WILL BE ON METHADONE. MY LIFE IS GOING GREAT RIGHT NOW AND TRYING TO STOP METHADONE USE RIGHT NOW WOULD BE SILLY IN MY OPINION. SOMEDAY WHEN I'M READY I WILL START TO WEEN OFF, BUT FOR NOW I'M HAPPY AND HAVE MY LIFE BACK..

WHO'S NEXT? TELL ME/US A LITTLE ABOUT YOUR SITUATION WITH METHADONE AND LIFE. I'M LISTENING...

I agree, I check for new postings everyday but to no avail nothing new until today yeah! Well here is my story. I went from using vicodin prescribed for a surgery I had back in 2004. Before this I would use pain pills for recreation but never had enough to get addicted. Anyway after the surgery i did good taking as perscribed, but then found I could not get through the day with out them. so on. I thought I would never use oxy's let alone heroin. But a couple of years ago that day came and I was taking anything I could get a hold of everyday was about making sure I had enough to get through that day. The best days were when I had plenty like a weeks supply, and I would say to my self this time I am going to ween myself off, yeah uh. Finally back in October I had enough I hated myself, wasted so much money etc. I got out the phone book and just started making phone calls. The first place I got was a local crisis care place but they said they could not see me until next week, I thought I was going to die how could I go a week? After a few more calls I found a place that could see me the next morning 6am and they seemed to have compassion for me and knew exactly how I was feeling. At that moment I felt that I had a real chance to beat this thing. And I am. I have had a few set backs, but I think I am past that now. my dose is good and i'm feeling better everyday. Thanks for listening this place also gives me strength especially when I know I'm not alone. PEACE.

HELLO NEW2LIFE, GREAT TO HEAR FROM YOU... I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN. EVERYDAY USED TO BE ALL ABOUT MAKING SURE I HAD ENOUGH PILLS TO GET BY. I HATED THAT. FROM THE MINUTE I WOKE UP TILL THE MINUTE I WENT TO SLEEP, ALL I THOUGHT ABOUT WAS MY NEXT SCORE. IT FELT HORRIBLE TO HAVE SOMETHING CONTROLLING MY LIFE.. I WOULD COUNT OUT THE PILLS AND MAKE UP LITTLE BAGGIES FOR EACH DAY,LOL. I WAS TOTALLY HOOKED BUT EITHER COULDN'T SEE IT OR REFUSED TO.. THE MONEY I SPENT IN THE 8 YEARS OF ADDICTION MAKES ME SICK...

BUT...... THOSE THINGS ARE ALL IN THE PAST, IN MY REAR VIEW MIRROR AS I CRUISE TODAY CLEAN AND SOBER.. YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST BUT YOU CAN WORK ON MAKING THE FUTURE A BRIGHT ONE...
I AM SO HAPPY TO NOT BE DRUG SEEKING EVERY DAY AND METHADONE IS THE REASON WHY..

NEW2LIFE, YOU AND I CAN KEEP POSTING AND I BET OTHERS WILL JOIN US..IF YOU EVER HAVE ANY QUESTIONS OR JUST WANNA CHAT LET ME KNOW, I CAN GIVE YOU MY EMAIL ADDRESS. ITS GOOD TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABOUT METHADONE. IF YOUR LIKE ME THEN YOU DON'T HAVE ANYONE THAT EVEN KNOWS YOU GO TO THE CLINIC EXCEPT YOUR FAMILY...

HERES SOME QUICK INFO ON ME SO YOU KNOW WHO YOUR TALKING TO.
I'M 33, A MALE AND LIVE IN MASSACHUSETTS (LOWELL)...
I LIKE LONG WALKS ON THE BEACH AND SUNRISES AND SETS , HAHAHAHAHAHAHA JUST KIDDING ABOUT THE LAST COMMENT... TAKE CARE AND CHAT SOON. PEACE

Survived another weekend clean and sober, it feels good. working towards my take homes, had one take home but it was taken away due to dirty test. relaspe over holidays. My counselor of course tested me that same week just my luck. although I am grateful it made me realize I needed to refocus and get more serious or this opportunity will be ruined and I'll be worse off than ever. GOTT thanks for your replies PM me if you want with your email. I'll reply with a little more info on myself. SOBER DAYS=EVERYDAY.

That sux you relapsed, sorry .. My email is lenihan75@comcast.net. Email me anytime if you wanna chat.
I got what they call a take home call back today at the clinic. It was my first one. A take home call back is when the clinic calls you and tells you not to take your dose at home the next morning , you have to go to the clinic and bring all your take homes with you. They test them to make sure they are all in tact and they make sure your doing what your supposed to be doing. They also give you a supervised urine. I friken hate those. For some odd reason I can't go with the dude standing there. I had to sit there for 2 hours and be late for work and then I finally went in front of the guy ,lol. I passed my take home recall no problem today so thats good. I got 5 take homes this week because monday is a holiday. Take care and chat soon. peace

It must be nice to have 5 takehomes, I can't wait till that day. Although going to the clinic everyday (except Sundays) is part of my routine, It gets me up and moving early each day. I'm suppose to get phased up next week so this should be my last Saturday, then next month I should get one more take. SOBRIETY=PEACE OF MIND.